Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Life Changing Moments

Six months ago on a Sunday afternoon I met up with my mom and my brother Bob to watch a movie, and to bring her some things. After the movie and some Taco Bell I gave my mom a hug and said goodbye and that I love her, and I got in my car and left. It was the last time I would get to talk with my mom before she died. Its funny how fast life can change. One minute I was putting donuts in a vending machine just like every Wednesday morning and the next I was starting a 2hr drive to pick up my brother to drive another hour to see my mom lying in a hospital bed unconscious, by Saturday she was gone, and my life was changed forever. There are moments in life that you will never forget. Those moments that divide life into the before and the after. What a comfort to know that moments like these do not come by accident. God is always in control of every detail. When someone we love dies or leaves us. The temptation is to ask God why He would take them away from us. God did not take my mom away from me after I spent only 23yrs with her. God gave me a wonderful loving mom for the first 23yrs of my life and the time I was given with her will affect who I am, how I think, and things that I do for the rest of my life. I miss her more than I could ever explain and yet I wouldn't trade the time I spent with her for one less moment spent in tears. God is gracious. God is good. He gave me the exact mom I was supposed to have, and He took her home at the precise time that she was supposed to go. How gracious and loving God is to bring my mom out of this world of hurt and sin into His presence! And He shows His grace and mercy by comforting those of us left behind. What God's plan is for me I don't know, but I am thankful to God that He does. And that I will be taken home as soon as I have finished His plan for my life, and not one moment sooner.


Ana said...

Oh, dear Sarah. What joy it gave me to read this post. Tears came to my eyes as I felt your pain but I echoed your praises to our Lord. Praise Him for the way He works in our lives!

Leah said...

Welcome to the blogging world! What a lovely post! It's soo good to see God working in your life, and you accepting it and growing from it. I shall look forward to future posts! Continue to look to Christ! :)

Steve n Vickie said...

Sorry to hear of your loss. Its hard to lose people we love. I love to see your great attitude and trust in God. His grace is sufficient. I've lost 3 grandparenst in the last year, but I know He knows best. Its comforting to hear your sentiments.

Melissa said...

Beautiful, Sarah. The post, yes, but also God's work in and through your life in the midst of your grief. May He be your strength and comfort and joy, today.